I give up.
I'm going to wear a sign that says "Impossible".
I was going to go into how I feel there must be something fundamentally wrong with me, and that I'm childish and I hate being childish, and how I hate not knowing where I stand and so on and so forth so there could be a record of the sad inner workings of my head and my heart, but fuck it. Impossible says it all.
I am impossible. Anything to do with me is impossible.